Gift from my baby

Today Marquito asked me to see this song and told me: "I was thinking about us, Im in love..esta cancion dice todo lo que siento por ti, lo que quiero darte ahora.."
After 3 years and 6 months of a relationship I guess it is a good sign :)

One Week After LASIK

It has been already one week since I was waiting for my laser eye surgery. I remember how nervous I was. I knew I didn't really want it but once being convinced by others there was no way back. I was happy not to see my doctor MUDr. Mikšovská since I really didn't like her from our first appointment. She tried to be nice however, I still had the feeling she's just "trying" :)
Unfortunately I saw her the second day, she was playing a bit with my flap correcting its positioning. I was confused since I didn't know what was she doing and why, she didn't really explained it when I asked and I was more confused when she stopped talking at all and after a while told me..."you can go away"... well strange in a private clinic isn't it?
I expected bit more. I remember she didn't even ask me that day how I felt (1 day after surgery).

Today it was very different. I prepared myself to meet her again. What a surprise when other doctor picked me up. I was still worried Mikšovská will come, but she didn't. You think I am crazy? Well, I am just one of those who like doctors treating them well. Let's be honest, doctor has a real power over a patient, it is a great example of information assymetry. You are going to the doctor asking for help, prepared to rely on him/her. If they don't treat you well will you really trust them? The health is yours, you take the responsibility and all you want from them is to be honest with you and to tell you everything you need to know to make your own decision. I have always been liberalist in my political opinions but last days I am not sure if privatization of health sector as a whole is a good idea. Why should a private clinic earning thousands of euros monthly tell people they might cause them some damage?

Well, my new doctor saw my eyes, answered all my questions, gave me other drops and I went home. I still have to wait some more months for the definitive results of my eyes.

Laser Eye Surgery (LASIK)

Last week I underwent the laser eye surgery called LASIK (Laser-Assisted in situ Keratomileusis). I hope I will join the majority of patients who do not have any complications. However, I have made a small research on internet and it seems there are plenty of patients who have serious irreversible problems after this surgery. And the more I read the more I know I made a mistake. Even if my surgery was successful the most important part is the healing itself and there is no garantee to the future.

I am very disappointed with the information on most of the clinics' websites. They do not inform seriously about possible negative consequences. How is it possible that the surgery doesn't hurt at all and patients do wake up the second day watching things clear as never before? I couldn't have opened my eye 30 first minutes after the surgery and each morning I wake up with pain. I see clearly most of the time but most of the time I feel pain behind my eyes and sometimes the vision blurres. Am I an exception? I asked my doctor about those concerns the second day and the only answer she gave me was that it is absolutely normal after such a surgery - so why the hell there is nothing about it on their web page neither they tell you before so you can count with it?

For anybody thinking about LASIK I can recommend to check following website - not to scare you but to give total picture about possible outcome: News from Ministry of Health in the US see movie from Chicago news and any other youtube movies about lasik.

The Thesis

There is one big thing I have to do to be able to move to Spain, it is The Thesis. Sounds so easy but.. I remember when I was at the beginning of my studies and people talked about The Thesis, I felt some kind of respect and thought that one must have a lot of knowledge to be able to write something so sophisticated. Now I am in this situation, The Thesis is here, before me lying as a high mountain, as an obstacle and I do not feel smarter than I was at the beginning. Sure I got experience but I am not sure I can really use those in The Thesis, surely not in the theoretical part. I am so close to the successful end of my studies and yet it seems so far..

Telling bad things is never easy

After the whole bureacratic process I passed at the university last days, I realized I do not have any classes to pass from my engineering program and I only miss 2 more exams, write and defend the thesis. I started to check job opportunities for the upcoming next 3 months. I still have to attend CEMS classes and pass other requirements connected to CEMS, I also went for a game organized by MOL.

After some days I found job. I started this Monday and since then I was not sure if I am doing the right thing. Moreover, I realized I can't do it since our CEMS Business Project at ATKerney started MOL game consumes plenty of time, I can't keep with my other responsibilities and after all, I can't go to sleep earlier than midnight.

Since I always like to spend some more time giving "it" or myself chance, it took me almost one week to decide. During this week I was so desperate about my indecisiveness that I started to google things like "I can't decide; quiting job, etc..." :-)

Marquito told me I shouldn't ever work if my motivation comes from feeling sorry for the boss. In this situation I really felt like that, I couldn't quit the first day even if I knew I don't like it, I simply felt sorry for my boss killing herself with plenty of work. I spent hours and hours thinking about it. There was a time when I thought I can do everything, I was sure about that but still I was not doing anything, may be I wanted but I had other things to do. Today around noon I made the decision. Suddenly everything was clear and I decided to quit, I just had to think how to do it, how to tell to my boss after one week that I changed my mind. I decided to call her and appologize, that was it, not more than 1 minute of chat, she was not happy, sure, I understand her, I think she understood too, it won't help anybody so it doesnt matter. I feel free and happy, all the stress is gone..Again I confirmed to myself how important are feelings in our lives and we should pay them more attention while making decisions.